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No rhyme, nor gilded words this time….

It has been quite some time, being occupied with the mundane, when writing took a backseat and I craved to be back here. Visions, images have clouded me all this while interspersed with words and guilt at not having enough time to let them flow out. I have been doing write ups though and penning down scripts of plays at school……but none of this collectively quenches the writer’s thirst that remains insatiate.

 

And this place here is my nest…where I fly back to at dusk. Since a recent trip to a wonderful heaven that I will be sharing shortly….I have yearned to tell how it has haunted me all these days.

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This was when I stood at the edge and saw clouds and mist float by ceaselessly that timelessness took its toll and I was nagged at for stalling others in the trek.

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I was lost here, I still am…..when I see these clicks. So much in our lives is so ordinary, so puny, so not needed….

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For the first time ever, probably so, I’m at a loss of words, rhyme or verse. I wish to say nothing and only let the solitude speak………….

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Here we could hear our echo, literally, a little “discovery” the kids made and the impalpable delight at the valley calling us back………..

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It drizzled, made us shiver and sit close, huddled and we felt so like innocent lambs, vulnerable, when suddenly the mist would disappear……..

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This is what we drove through all the while, and in my mind, I still meander on these roads.

There is still more to it and while I glide through these pictures, one particular music from the movie “Roja” keeps striking back……….

I haven’t seen this movie again since I saw it first some twenty years back……phew…..that makes me sound old…….but, honestly, the music still haunts.

I do not intend to word this post…….just memories and music……..I lived through……I know for this and more……

 

A weed….

And then it grew

Like a weed out of a crevice….

And it dawned upon her,

That concrete too had life.

 

So she swayed

Among it all…

In lilting symphony

Hiding nothing withal…..

 

She was now

Beyond the vale;

Now green, now red….

Hues galore, leaving no trail.

 

She has loved

With all her might

Garnered aromas,

From every blossom in sight.

 

Thus enriched,

She has pastures

Yet to tread

And where ever she goes,

Enigma….lot unsaid.

She knew

And this she knew

The day had ended

With mountains yet to scale…..

 

So she has visions of the morrow

The day yet to yawn

With promises not to fail…..

 

And so it has been

Always,at the foot of

Every journey beyond her realms

When she has risen

From ashes and dust

And challenged all extremes…

 

Of concretes…..

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I dreamt yesterday,

Of rubies and flowers,

Of valleys and rocks,

Of home, and unexpected showers.

 

And I chased the winds,

With all my might;

I ran among the blossoms

‘Twas all so right…..

 

It was then,

That the concrete

Slapped me hard

It was so discrete..….

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I do not know

How it stole

Into my very being

How it has come to be

Where home used to be…..

 

I swear I danced,

To lilting melodies,

Unawares I meandered

Amongst pastures and canopies……

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Here, amidst choking claws

And demons on roads;

I try to get some sleep.

I dare not dream

For the overbearing structure

Would hurl me down and deep….

 

 

So I thrust my dream away;

It doesn’t let me sleep…..

Labour and toil I must,

So the mirage doesn’t creep…..

I have craving mouths to feed…..

 

Unlearning…..

It happens only once in a while,

When you unlearn,

All that has been drilled within,

And for an empty mind you yearn…….

 

It happens quite rare,

That you choose the raging fire

And forgo the well traversed shade,

Till you burn with desire.

 

It happens only sometimes,

When you scream out loud;

You’ve been ingrained a mellowed tone,

You care not of the crowd…..

 

Sometimes it so happens,

That you blurt out secrets…..

(When ‘mum’ had been your word)

And all your fear vanishes.

 

 

It happens once in a while,

You celebrate your failure;

When all this while they had said

Only winners we endear……

 

It does happen once in a while…..

You are alone in the deep dark woods,

And you lay yourself bare

Putting aside all “shoulds”.

 

It so happens awhile

You aren’t in the charade….

You put aside that mask,

You proudly show the world

Every scar, every facade……

 

 

Yes, it takes time to unlearn,

But it is worth the while…

What then seeps within,

Races your heart…..

Brings that million dollar smile.

 

 

 

 

Now and then……

Every now and then

She looks around and gasps,

At the canopy above

So dense, yet so very clear………

 

Every now and then

She is amazed,

To count her steps

Wavering, yet distinctly deeper…….

 

Every now and then

She is questioned

About her ways,

Dauntless, sharp and why no fear?

 

Every now and then

She takes a ride

Upon the crazy waves

Alone, ready to steer…….

 

Every now and then

She is told

To fear his might,

Shrivel, with a feminine demeanour……

 

Every now and then

She prances around,

And fiercely guards her palace,

Like a tigress, out in the clear…..

 

Every now and then

She marvels;

At the love that still remains

Despite the rebel, the cold sneer…….

 

Every now and then

She dances,

About her curves

Celebrating herself, spreading cheer……

 

No words this time……

Something tells me

It isn’t words this time

That agony is speechless

To see the profound abyss…….

Even if it has to be spoken

Only silence

Between us

Till you descend

Till the time I stand
face to face
with your vision
All is stalled….

Then you can hold my hand
And I can then spill out

My need
for your embrace

No words
Just an embrace………

That all is well

Perfect and divine

No more words

Till I can turn to the world

And say

that He has me

In His enfolding…….